yes you are correct i do have (note not suffer from ) ptsd...it is not what defines me. i also have asthma, 3 kidneys, arthritis, DID, trigeminal neuralgia, bipolar, & a bunch of other nifty conditions...all of these conditions are a part of me, but not me.

i read your response..but i note that you have not answered my question...what brings you joy?

you list chores, maintenance jobs..items which must be performed as a matter of fact. we all have those of various types. honestly...does sanding your house bring you joy? maybe the satisfaction of completing it does..but is that the thing that gets you out of bed each morning?

i ask this not as a person with ptsd..but as someone with a degree in exercise physiology & wellness. the benefits of just 20 minutes of exercise a day are well known to improve mental & physical well being. now i am not saying "geez go out & run a marathon every day" oh god no...but a brisk walk, jog, bike ride, horse ride, swim, etc is all that is needed.

do something FUN. enjoyable. i doubt sanding your home is fun. in all of your writings i never read fun or happy...always drama. we all have drama...one type or another, we have drama..mine is no worse than yours...it's just mine. the difference is how i handle it.

exercise effects the serotonin levels in your brain. it makes you feel better. it's cheaper than a script from your doctor. you don't need fancy equipment. you need about 20 minutes. studies are showing now a connection between exercise and the delay of dementia & possibly Alzheimers ..surely there has to be a connection to ptsd in there someplace.

so really..what is it worth..time spent bemoaning the fact there is a condition in your brain or doing something about it. if you can begin to heal your brain by doing something simple like walking ...then why not make time for it? 20 minutes..isn't your quality of life worth it?

i didn't mention i was also a non-insulin dependent diabetic for about 6 years. thru exercise & diet i was able to alleviate the need for medication for this condition. again...if something so simple can make a change..why not try it. it beats sitting inside writing epic my life sucks because my brain doesn't work posts...

if you read this info in an article would you share it & do it? my point is we can all sit & bemoan our fates (about ptsd, or my need for a hip replacement, or poverty, or what ever) or we can address them. this solution is a start. it is simple. it is cheap. & it will do a body good.

try it. what do you have to lose? 20 minutes? the odds of improving your health, fixing your brain maybe & here's a thought relaxing & bringing some joy to your life certainly must be worth even that.