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Those all sound like they would worry me as well. Remember though that stress alone can cause nearly all of those symptoms and you say you are under a lot of stress. Aknowledging some may be due to stress is also in no way devalidating the feelings. Stress is a real b**** (excuse my language, I NEVER cuss but I'm not happy with stress atm lol) and can cause a lot of serious issues. I've fainted and stopped breathing, I've had a stress related grand mal seizure, I've been to the hospital on a few occassions because the stress started to effect my physical body. It can do serious things to you.
But these symptoms can also be the sign of mental disorders as you have said. I don't know much about OCD. The doctors have said I have "mild OCD" because I do obsess over certain things and have certain rituals that I have to do but this behavior is caused by past abuse and it was a way for me to feel safe as a child through these obsessions and rituals.
But the dissociation I was diagnosed about 11 years with that. At the time they didn't call it dissociation but that term came later. Look into dissociation some. I'm no doctor but it doesn't sound like DID so I would stay away from that topic unless a t or pdoc suggests otherwise. DID with its use in the media and it's strange ability makes it pretty scary to a lot of people and it truly does not sound like DID. But there are other forms less intense where you do kind of float away. Perhaps look into those a little and if one sounds like it fits, print out the symptoms and bring it to your t for a suggestion. But anxiety can cause others to dissociate, "normal" people. You don't have to have a disorder to dissociate because everyone does it to a degree. But the way it sounds, the fact that it's effecting your life, maybe look into it and see if one sounds more like you because it sounds more like you're dissociating than you are dilusional.
Many people have thoughts, ideas, questions about life and meaning. It's when those thoughts take over your life, when those thoughts become your life and you start to believe irrational things and start to change your life because of these thoughts when it becomes dilusional in my experience. I have these thoughts about 60% of the day the other 40% I'm sleeping or trying to just not think at all, my mind needs a break. They are scary, they are beautiful, they are beyond my years and comprehension and they are sad sometimes but they are just thoughts. We can think anything we want it's when we do things with those thoughts, things that change our life in a negative way that's when they become dangerous thoughts.
I still wouldn't suggest dissociation but you do seem to be experiencing those symptoms, but it's common for those under stress to feel like they are in a fog of sorts and being pulled away. It's the minds way of taking a break when things get overwhelming. Again these are just my opinions though, maybe bring up dissociation with your t's instead of schizophrenia? Even if it's not a dissociative disorder it doesn't mean the temporary dissociation can't be helped. There are tools you can learn to get you back to feeling connected.
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