I am so sorry that you feel that this last year was a waste---

I can get to that way some days as well- I can make it more than a year and say my life has been a waste--

but the thing that gets me out of that thinking (for me that is really a downer) but to think of the non-material things that I have accomplished

IE Either did more self reflecting, did not let people stomp all over me all the time, spoke my mind more, and always another year with my boyfriend is progress with me with breaking cycles from my past, and the list can go on.

I understand that the world spins on this currency called money- every where you do need it to survive- and it is sad and madding- but there is more to life than money I don't mean to sound like a cliche here but if we keep up on ourselves and keep trying that is always a good thing

You got your manual liscense which IS something- you have continued to enjoy some small things in life- Down load things and go on forms-

you have not totally given up which to me is a huge thing for a year that has been craptacular

I also find it helpful if I make lists some times-- Oh geez lists-- I have a ton, I have some lists that I lose, and some lists that only 1 thing is crossed off- and i have some lists that I got all that stuff listed done---- It does depend on how demanding I am with some things when making the list-- but the point is -- Start small on the list of things to do/accomplish- things that you control and that you can realistically do-
1) Send in Ipod to get fix (Does it have a warranty I am assuming- then it could be postage all of that cost right?)

I am not saying to make a New years resolution- I never look at these lists that way- and I am only mentioning it due to we are so close to the end of the year and to start a new one that I don't want that crap to be confused with this list idea of mine.

Of Course only a suggestion.

A personal organizer sounds great- I may look into something like that actually I have a small earse board on my fridge (dollar store for a dollar)-- and I write my stuff on there- Do DBT book- (that has been on there for a while) but Appts are on there and ever changing-- and if it comes to a time where there is nothing on there- well then I make up something that may be good to do for me -- Clean up house is one of them for me- but to each their own

I do wish you a wonderful end of the year and I DO wish that this new year brings you more joy than the last