Thanks for the support, understanding and hugs. I'm trying to be positive about next year. There's a possibility that I MIGHT be going to sing in Austria for 3months, but at this stage it's a big fat maybe, so this weekend I will be emailing my resume to every vacancy I can find! I know Jordan doesn't see me as a failure (right now) but I also know that she thinks her sperm donor is useless. I just don't want her thinking 1 day, that she got a raw deal having 2 lousy parents... SunAngel, I love you too