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Originally Posted by PurpleFlyingMonkeys
Got triggered last night... Was a rough night and am feeling the lingering winds this morning from it. Didn't black out, didn't do much of anything. Just laid there motionless for the most part. Staring... Floating... Heard the popping and the static and the ringing a lot last night. Almost every time I was triggered last night my head would fill with pressure and I would start to hear these things but they were so quiet at first I could barely hear. Then they gota little louder. I tried to focus. Most of the time I float away and don't listen to the noise. I tried to listen last night and it didn't work. The noise stopped almost instantly when I noticed it and tried to listen. It doesn't always do that but for some reason did last night. I don't know if it's from the DID. It keeps happening. Last night wasn't easy. Wasn't easy to put on a "happy face" when you're not even with it but I made it through without any huge scene, thankfully. Most of the time it ends in a scene... What's wrong with me? This can't be all because of migraines? Maybe it is, maybe it's PTSD and migraines? Maybe it's DID and migraines? Maybe it's schizophrenia and migraines? Mania and migraines? They all have such common symptoms and I've been labeled every one... I don't want a label, I just want to know what is happening to me...
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For the last two night I have been triggered by something but I am not sure what. The other night was the worst I got stuck in a loop of thought. I could not get out of. I was unable to get back. It was causing me a great amount of emotional and physical pain. I remembered my therapist taught me some grounding techniques. I found some sour tasting cough drops and ate one. Almost immediately I could feel my my head cleared. Than I felt real. I was in the kitchen. It worked. I wasn't able to remember grounding while I was in the loop but once my thoughts slowed I began trying to get myself back. That is when I remembered the grounding technique. In a way I know I will have to experience some of the emotional issues related to my trauma. But it helps me to know that I can help myself get back at some point.