i just cant stay in my house and deal with my family anymore. i dont feel safe or happy at home i feel trapped and secluded. when im around my family i feel like im in a room full of strangers. its like they dont even know me at all. they show no interest in me except for when they need me to do something. i feel like a housekeeper. they dont understand what im going through at all, they thought that if i go see a shrink once that im magically fixed and now they think im depressed on purpose? i have no one to talk to about my issues at all, i dont want to be that girl who goes and complains about her life to people so i just bottle it up but it literally feels like im about to explode. my dad talks **** about me to everyone behind my back he acts like he only has one daughter, my sister fights with me over anything and throws insults that hit below the belt, im talking about the "go kill yourself already" and "nobody likes you anyway you ungrateful *****" kind of stuff, and my mom is too busy trying to act sixteen to notice, i could seriously go in my closet and hang myself right now and no one would know i was gone until they needed me to go do some dishes or clean the house. i want to move out, but i have no place to go and i dont even know if i could legally leave, i keep waiting for things to get better but theyre only getting worse. how much longer do i have to take this **** until i can leave? i dont care if i dont have a future, i just want one that's away from them for good.