I'm 20 years old, go to university abroad in england and have bipolar disorder. for over a year now i've had a boyfriend, who has been completely faithful to me and as supportive as he could be while i've been diagnosed with bipolar and have been trying different medications. The psychiatrist I visited adviced me not to drink, and my boyfriend agreed with this.
When I'm stable I adore him, he's the centre of my world and I'd do anything for him, however when I'm manic, i completely lose control, I drink, break up with him, tell him I don't love him, cheat on him, and utterly believe beyond doubt that i have no feelings for him and that i don't want to be with him.

This usually last between a few days and a few weeks. The first time it happened, he gave me the benefit of the doubt and forgave me as long as he felt that i was trying hard to overcome bipolar as much as I could. However recently it happened again, and he split up with me.

I completely understand why he broke up with me, but we're still talking daily and sleeping together, so the relationship isn't over really, although I feel he feels he has to move on and let go of me, because nothing will 100% guarantee I won't go manic and cheat on him again.

Admittedly I was only diagnosed with a mental bipolarity six months ago, and have been trying anti depressants as my psychiatrist told me it would be better to try other options before committing to lithium or mood stabilisers, so my boyfriend feels that maybe being on the wrong medication played a part in my manic episodes and infidelity.

At the end of the day I love my boyfriend and want to spend the rest of my life with him, what can I do to ensure that I don't forget that and lose control when I'm manic as has happened on previous occasions? Will mood stabilisers help with this? Am I just meant to be single forever?