Gads, the feeling of stuck is awful, so I feel for you. Many people are in jobs feeling just like you without an option of change. Too bad there's not a data pool where all those stuck in jobs could trade.

Meanwhile, what you can do something about is change your personal assumptions regarding your boyfriend. If you have a diagnosis of paranoia, then jealousy is an appropriate outcome aka delusion. If you're insecure, then you have power to look into that. I asked myself two questions to help me get "unstuck" : 1) What are you getting from him that you don't want? and 2) What are you wanting from him that you are not getting? Your true needs will bubble up from those two questions.

If this is helpful, write me back for the next steps in boundary work. I now have a very successful to the man I once divorced. During our four year divorce, these two questions came my way and literally "unlocked" my life. Happy trails are beyond the trials, Susan Quinn