I feel like ... i would feel better shot.. (not in a suicidal manner)...
right now i feel gawd awful..
I am crashing cold turkey off of hydromorphone (12mgs total a day i was taking. opiate med prescribed by my family doc, but psych nurse felt the need to disocnenute this all at once along with other meds that she just went poof on and foruce me to stop all at the same time), xanax, klonapin, and one i took for a few weeks i'm also crashing off of, cymbalta. ... all at once... (trust me, i aint that stupid.. this was NOT my idea or want.. well.. not at all one time at least...)
any suggestions?
I've also not taken benedryl for a bit, which i dont think would have crashing to it. but who knows.. it's never had any problems before, but then i've not taken it nightly every night for long times..
I also am having a REALLY HARD TIME in many things! mentally... and physically...
... i keep seeing things... which happened last time i ran out of hydromorphone and cold turkey'd it until the next day when i got a refill..
Then I feel like ... horrible... and panicy... and feverish.. and freezing... but burning up... lethargic... achey... depressed... right now the room is spinning as well.. and then ... i'm having a very hard time keeping it all together... i get that sense that i do when i'm dissociating badly... headaches are so severe and stabbing in the temple off and on.
my cat knows it too... she wont leave me alone.. and i'm easily irrateated right now... i feel like i have no emotion on the outside.. or in my voice.. but i'm deeply depressed within... so bad it hurts so bad inside... it's like my insides want to cry... and that's all i have.. no other emotions at all.. thats it... on the inside...
the doc who stopped everything doesn't care. SHE REALLY DOESN'T CARE... i dont even know why she is in that profession... so me calling them up does nothing.. other than make her treat me even poorly which only make the depression even worse yesterday...
... i only have so much fight in me...
help?.. any suggestions? please?