I hear you loud and clear on this one! It took me 44 years of being in the church to wake up to what was missing in my heart for my faith. I kept wondering when it was going to go from my head to my heart!

If you really openly consider it, "Christianity" is a mentality that one takes on not unlike anyone else with any other religion. It's either given to us as kids like with me, or it's taken on as an adult, typically in some kind of crisis leading to being "born again".

And what's interesting to witness is that Jesus never even heard of Christianity, nor was trying to create it. He was in fact trying to save his people from the dogmatic superstitions imposed by the religious elite. He wasn't trying to create another dogma. The dogma is the mentality. Jesus was the heart. The door mat "fact" is the manifestation of anything we do from our heads, from our logic. If the heart isn't behind it, then what we are doing is just going through the motions and becoming the doormat.

The dogma isn't the salvation, but the heart of Jesus. His true message is the salvation, however, that message is paradoxial making it almost impossible to be received. The dogmas didn't get the message and have turned Jesus's heart into a logical mentality with sweet words, but little transformation.

I came to learn that organized religion can't go from my head to my heart because it's an idea, not a realization. So I dropped it and never have I been closer to God or Jesus! Now I am just me and in awe of creation! I was able to achieve Jesus's "commandments" regarding love authentically, no imitation of Christ required!