I have not posted here for a couple years. So much going on. I wish you all a happy holidays.

I see a therapist next Thursday. I am scared to death. I want to be honest, but they might put me in the pysch ward. No im not suicial I have tons of panick attacks.

When my husband is at work unless i walk i cry. He loves me and cares so much and he is open to therapy for me, and willing to come with me.

I have done somethings wrong and i deeply hurt my husband. Ran away at times. I ran away because i have so many flashbacks to before i met him.

My husband is very supportive and grateful im seeking help.