no one understands...i can be surrounded by people and still feel alone. life just sucks. why am i still bothering with fighting this depression. even if it does eventually get beter, i'll be living life in constant fear of when it will come back again. it's just a mater of time - it will come back...it aways does. i want to curl up in a ball and be left alone. i dread everything - work next week, time with family, trying to ignore the pain my thoughts bring long enough to be able to fall asleep... it would be so much beter to not bother with life anymore - but i don't want to cause my family and husband all of that pain. my husband is the only good in my life. i love him - but he just doesn't understand. no one does! how can they!?! heck-i don't undestand it. it doesn't mater how much i see my psychologist or how much medication i take...it just never ends! it never will...