I didn't interpret your post that way at all. You sound frustrated, and rightly so. It's not easy to give and give and receive nothing in return. If the universe was just and ordered, people would never feel the way you do. Reciprocation is a vital part of healthy relationships; feeling like your life has meaning, that others care about you, is extremely important.

I don't know what else to tell you because I'm currently residing in that same dark void of Do I Matter And Does Anyone Really Care About Me. I know it's hard. All I can tell you is that you're certainly not alone. And if I'm posting here today and coincidentally feeling the same way, there have to be thousands of others out there who are also feeling the same way right now. I hope next Christmas is better for all of us.