I have not posted for quite a long time.

Christmas is the worst time for me. I find the expectations are way too much. I am in the grip of a kind of paralysis and can' t do anything except be motionless and panic inwardly at what I have got to get done. As deadlines approach, I can feel I am getting quieter and quieter and my stomach is in a huge knot. No willpower at all. If there was a place to run away to, I would.

I am deeply sorry to sound so negative at Christmas.

The reason for my posting is that I want to know if anyone else is affected in the same way.