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Originally Posted by curlydee
it seems like the only things that are somewhat of an escape is tv with my husband and eating - but after i eat i feel guilty for eating too much - left over feelings of being made to feel guilty about my weight as a child. i don't think anything is a real escape. i have an hour drive each way from work alone with my thoughts - pure hell! i try the radio and talking on the phone..no help. why is this happening to me - am i such a horrible person? I HATE LIFE!
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You are not horrible! I can relate to this so much!! Its hard when you have other people to cook for...I try to teach them but nobody is really interested. I like to cook and eating always made me feel better when I was a kid. I was the only chubby one in the family and mom commented on it alot. over the holidays I spent way too much money on ingredients for stuff I wanted to make. I feel really guilty about that too. when I am not escaping by cooking or eating I am thinking of what to make next and feeling down.