Hi P,
I've been following your story from the beginning and I am convinced that you are in with the wrong crowd of people.
I know that you are in a small place and probably can't get away easily but anything would be better than what is happening for you at the moment. I've seen this happen so many times in small towns.
Please believe me Pimprenelle, this stuff will eat you up if you let it, and you are worth so much more.
There is a big world out there, and it's waiting for you.
I don't often give such up front advice here at PC but I have a strong feeling that there is a way out for you, and it's straightforward - new people!
Good thoughts and good luck, M