my psychiatrist is concerned about how bad i'm doing, and have been for a while, that he keeps adding drugs without taking me off the old ones, hoping a combo of all the meds will do something they're not doing when taken alone. i'm up to 5 psych meds now. 5! nothing helps. the doctor assures me that we'll find something that works. even if something does work, it will just come back again-it always does... why do i make the effort to fight? i should just give in to the only true solution that keeps coming up in my thoughts and end it all. i just don't want to hurt my husband... he's the only thing that maters at all. why is this happening to me? i can't take it aymore!