sounds like you are just starting down this path. theres a cheerful thought. after 53 years of thinking like you I dont have any friends or people to worry about being annoyed by or intimidated by. My parents are old and near death, my older sister (with issues of her own) has told me no one in the family ever wants to speak with me again. so something to look forward too. as long as you can learn to be okay with living in complete solitary confinement. good luck