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Just a minor update with my progression: I'm feeling slightly better though the problems are piling up. I got through Christmas without breaking down, yet I did feel a tad sad when it came to the presents. I couldn't pay for my sister and brothers present, my mom did that. I'm running out of money and I fear I can't even pay for my education.
I applied for a place at a cooking-course. I need to buy the books, the clothing and the knives. But also I need to pay for the transport, which is really expensive. I have about enough to pay for my monthly phone bill, but that is also it. I just can't get myself to ask for the money my parents and sister owe me when they're both short on it, atleast I know my mom is. I keep telling her it is okay, that she doesn't have to worry about it, because I can see that she has her own stuff to deal with.
I barely talk to my sister and I don't want to ask her for anything. I just.. really don't know what to do. A loan is out of the question and postponing my education would seem stupid. I'm so stressed about it and I really don't know what to do.
Anyways, I tell myself I'll figure it out eventually. It can't get any worse...
About the books, I'll get around to it once I can buy some.
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