"I can't handle the images anymore" I just wish I knew a way that would help to have them stop. but I don't. If cutting is the only way to make it through then well you know the rest.

You are still around your family, don't blame your condition on being a bad parent. You are ill, and yes it affects everyone around you. This type of condition is hard to handle and not see so many images. It's hard, and all we can do is be there for you.