My dad yelled at me the whole day, I couldn't handle the stress. I don't remember a lot of it, because I just kept going numb so I didn't have to listen.
My niece called me fat, which is a really sensitive subject for me lately due to my increase in weight from the medications. Everyone was doing the ab circle and I went to get on and before I could get there she goes "She probably won't be able to do it, because she's too fat". And even though I did just fine with the exercise she went around telling everybody I couldn't do it because I was too fat. I was crushed I wanted to die inside. I have a history of an eating disorder and it crushed me. I crumbled on the inside, but maintained my composure.
Now all I want to do is punish myself for being so disgusting. I don't deserve to be here.
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