I have a session on Wednesday at 1...which is a completely different day/time and I have a huge fear it's going to throw everything off...I like to have T when it's evening time...darker...it makes it seem easier to let go and let my defenses down...it's just a different space spiritually and mentally too-even physically...when I'm more tired I'm more apt to be vulnerable with T..so I'm conflicted about going on Wednesday...but I do need to process with him the horrible fight that happened the day before xmas eve-where I almost got hit by a family member...so I just don't know...I could save this money and buy new shoes that I need instead? Why do I feel like I dont want to see T so badly like I usually do? hmmm...