Hey all,

Its been a long long time since I posted and more than anything I am using this as a sounding board I guess.

After all the heart break with my ex I have found myself a FWB/toyboy and have been seeing him for the past 12 months. I had issues with his young age and from the start insisted that there could be nothing more than what I wanted - which was purely sex.

Anyway 12 months down the track and a few "break ups" where I deleted him from my phone and didn't want to see him as I NEED to change/move forward and find someone that I can love, we are still seeing each other. He is the most emotionally distant guy I have ever met when he is not around me, when he is with me he is clingy and cuddly and I love him.

I have totally and utterly fallen for what i know can only hurt me - him.

We have recently had a scare that i may be pregnant. He came to the party with all of the brilliant things i wanted to hear.... except that it all only applies if I am pregnant... If i am not pregnant then he wants it all to stay the same, "at least for a few years until I finish my second degree" are his words/thoughts.

The part I find strange is the following thins he said;
"I have thought a few times that I wanted to have kids with you"
"I have gotten myself a great catch you are genuinly a good catch"
"Be prepared to have a heck of a mortgage again now"
"Its just moving everything forward a few years, not the best way for it to happen but it is what it is"
"i will never abandon you, ever"

Not sure what advice I want here...

We have done two pregnancy tests, one came back positive and the other negative... going to give it a few more days and do another.

Am I right that my rational brain says forget him? Or do I continue to follow my heart which is already aching?