It is very unfortunate that you cant ask for help from those around you-that"s decided-then what CAN you do ? Ts are fine to go to &vent your feelings,they give you support & advice...but ultimately my dear,YOU have to support yourself..build up your inner strength...grow a thick hide to ward off hurts..as Eienstein said we use only 20% of our potentials...you can do it..& focus on the brighter aspects of your life..there must be some,no ? Wishing you the very best..LOL.