I am so sorry you are feeling badly. You are such a gift to your family, and you are so lucky to have your niece. As for practical advice, maybe ask your doctor about Topamax? It is used for migraines, is a mood stabilizer, and has a good effect on your metabolism. Of course I don't know anything about your health or other meds, but this med has been very helpful for me. You deserve the best of everything, you are one of life's unsung heroes.