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Originally Posted by Trippin2.0
I honestly don't get it, why are we making such a fuss in this miserable 'life' ... Chasing things you want, only to lose it or destroy it yourself. The never-ending persuit of happiness, just so you can be miserable,angry, suicidal only days later... Celebrations which you remarkably live thru AND manage to enjoy, only to refuse to leave your bed the very next day. Making future plans even tho you want no part in a future of any kind, b.coz at the age of 17 you realized this was a miserable excuse of an existance and prayed earnestly every year you wouldn't see your next b.day. Fast forward 10yrs, you feel the EXACT same way, except with the addition of guilt b.coz you've become a parent. What's the point of forming ANY kind of personal relationships when people only want to be in the company of 'happy you' and can't stand the real morbid miserable you. So in reality you're alone M0ST of the time, despite having 'friends/family' I fudging hate this, I don't know what to do. I just want out... QUESTION: Why do YOU bother?
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Trippin', have you ever heard the song Bittersweet Symphony by the Verve.
That song describes what life really is all about. I am going to go find the link to that song.
What keeps me going is my husband and my dog. They would be lost without me so I have a reason to stick around. Everyday, think of 5 things you are grateful for and write them down. They can be repeats too. A Therapist told me to do that and whenever I am feeling like you're feeling, I do that and it makes me feel a little bit better.
You have a daughter who loves you and you love her. She will keep you going. If she lost you, what would she do? She needs you and we need you.
I understand 100% how you are feeling. (((HUGS)))