Hey thank you for replying..
And to answer ur questions..
ive felt this way for around 3 months which is when me and my exgirlfriend broke up for good but the nightmares and the suicidal thoughts n crying started after i told my parents i was gay...
What made me happy before? MANY THINGS.. drawing, colorings, writing, watching movies, riding atv's, going out with family n friends.. talking to my girl.. even going to work made me happy..
And no i havent seen a doctor but its getting to the point that i need too.."
And to be honest with you i think i big part of this is my breakup with a person i loved n i can try n go back with the person.. but thats just being selfish of my part.. i dont want to use that person.. i want to get out of this one on my own .. be strong !
N for some reason it just gets worst.. today i got ****ed over with paypal n they screwed me with 400 dlrs.. so i dont have money for the holidays ...