The thing with the NHS is that they will stop seeing you if you 'don't get with the programme'. Besides you only get allotted such a small amount of sessions eg 20 max, which isn't always enough, especially when you have to wait over a year to get to see a T (so if you were a so-called 'simple' case you'd likely have improved by that time and get taken off the list).

I've been thinking a lot about therapy since my last session, and I figured that the reason I'm so fake in session (there's an interesting thread about this topic in the depression forum) is because I'm so scared of him not liking me and wanting to stop seeing me, like most of the others, so I protect myself and try and minimise this by being all fake and jokey. (And yes, I will be bringing this up with T at my next session)

*Willow*