After my last session, I was confused about my T's actions toward me. This is what I plan to say to her related to this:

I realize I’m not going to let any thing, person, feeling, or situation get in the way of my healing!!!! I'm starting to make progress and nothing is going to get in the way of that! I want for the first time to live free in the destiny God has for me. That is my short-term plan. However, in typical Chopin fashion, I am considering the future. I actually feel silly asking this, but you have made me feel comfortable enough that I won't be ridiculed for asking and that you will tell me the truth, whether I like it or not. That is progress, no? How do you feel about post-therapy contact or associations? I realize you might have strict boundaries about this. I realize you might have absolutely no interest in me in this manner whatsoever. I realize it’s clichéd. I realize I may be a long way from finishing therapy. I will tell you what brought this to mind. I have genuinely grown to like and love you as a person and sister in Christ. When you mentioned how you were physically weak and needed to walk, I realized my own need to do this. I pictured having you as a walking partner; walking and talking about trivial, non-therapeutic topics. I also need people from the community on my human rights committee at work. You came to my mind as being an intelligent, challenging member of the committee wherein you could learn more about the fascinating population I work with. I also hate the thought of going through all this with you then losing you from my life completely. So for what it’s worth, once I am well and truly finished and there is nowhere else for me to go in therapy and I can stand on my own, I would still like to be associated with you somehow. I am not talking about being "BFF's", but rather someone I might get together with on occasion for lunch or coffee or the walks I mentioned above. I could see you as an HRC member. We have things in common, we both work in the human services field, and I’m still considering going back to obtain my master’s in counseling.

Any thoughts?