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I guess the holiday happened but I really wasn't a part of it. I wasn't even an observer in the background this time. "No one" was there. I was just along for the ride, experiencing the people, food, gifts...with total indifference. Nothing could get me to feel a part of this. Not even my grandson. There is not one emotion in my head. (I can't say for sure if that bothers me) It feels as though someone shut out the lights in my head and nothing is going on.
Has anyone experienced that? Is it a form of dissociation? I've never felt like this before.
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