(((Trippin))) Sorry you're feeling this way - not much I can say that I think will help, but I'm sending warm thoughts your way.

What keeps me going, most of the time, is sheer stubbornness. Sure, I adore my husband and taking care of him is important to me, and I love my dog too. But mostly, I just refuse to give up. I've invested way too much work, care, worry, pain, and love into this life to just let it go without a fight. These situations come and go - it gets worse, it gets better.