*Possible trigger, about death of a friend*

Hi Trippin,
Next week will be the one-year anniversary of the loss of a friend who decided he was too miserable to go on. He was the lay leader of my church. He left behind a wife and son who recently had turned 18. I hate that his death is my reason for trying to push away suicidal thoughts when these cycle around, and seek help asap. His wife is one of my good friends, and I experience the pain he left behind when we get together. I am determined, though, to offer her as much support as possible, because her pain reminds me of the aftermath of suicide. I take meds, go to therapy, and seek online support from PC friends in order to put it all in perspective.
Don't worry about submitting the same thoughts each week. I feel like I whine and complain here all of the time, but those who are stronger than me always offer positive support.
Bluemountains