Ever since the divorce, I have had to face major anxiety from being alone.

I am a champion with this independence thing, but I still especially have trouble at night.

I cannot sleep alone and my new bf Andy has been sleeping with me.

When he has to go away for the day, I cannot stop fixing my mind on him. I find myself dependent on him for how I feel about myself.

We are not committed in a relationship, but I still don't like being alone.

And I am ashamed to admit this.

As I said, I love being independent.

I seem to not worry about what strangers think, but I am always worried about what Andy thinks.

He says, "Billi, you have my love and respect. Why are you so worried about that?"

I don't know why.

Billi