It has taken me awhile to admit that there is an alter that wants and has physically hurt me. I have hit myself some times very hard in the face and on different parts of my body. There is another alter that will tell the hitter no but that hasn't always worked. I have gotten better at preventing it because of the pain and injury. It affects my ability to work and I can't have that. Why is there some one ,who is a part of me, who wants to physically hurt me? I can understand why I have alters to protect me. But I don't understand why I would want to hurt me? I am trying to understand.