Ugh I swear my life should be a soap opera... If you have read any ofmy other posts you know about the drama with the guy at work thatis making me insaine... now let me go back a lil.. I have been divorced almost 3 years now, we have a son together, and the marraige wasnt great, he isnt a sweet guy and he is mean to be now.. but never the less he is the love of my life and after 3 years I have never moved on and still love him as much as the day I married him although he has made it clear he dislikes me and we will never be anything but parents to our son he has not a drop of feelings left... ok fast forward to xmas .. his parents call begging me and the kids to come over and spend xmas as a family for the kids sake. So I agree.. last minute his on again off again gf whom I cant stand.. (he started dating her less than a month after we seperated) decided to come.. so I spent xmas with my ex whomim still in love with watching him makeout with his love of his life, and his family. by the end of the night im crying cause our son is begging daddy to come home with us and watch him open presents at our house..which he refused, then ended up keeping our son and leaving him at his parents so he can go out with HER. so I didnt get my son on xmas and my daughter cried the whole way home cause she wants us to be a happy family again and not have to split it up.. so I have cried ever since last night... how do you move on when you cant turn love off... and you cant fix it for the kids