I know meds suck. I was very antimed. I so resent having to rely on pills to make me sane, but Im getting over it.

I spent over thirty years of my life unmedicated. They were hell. I made some really bad choices. I raised three children in poverty and lived thru two abusive relationships because I couldnt function well enough to choose different. How different could life had been if I were stable? I will never know.

After a nervous breakdown and involuntary hospitalization I am now successfully being treated with meds and have been stable for two years. I got my degree and have a good job. I never believed I could get better and have a "normal" life, but it is happening. Had I only had access to this all those years ago. Thirty years wasted. Dont let it happen to you.