thanks for replying. I think I'm going to research some therapists and go in the beginning of the year. My main problem is I don't have health insurance so i'm afraid of how much the sessions will be and if I will be able to afford them or not, and If I can afford them, how many will I be able to afford. Money is so tight which doesn't add to all of this stress.

I get discouraged when I'm the only one putting any effort into trying to make plans with people, they turn me down and then I see later that they were doing something because of pictures on facebook. I don't understand it and when I mention it, they say something like it was last minute. Well if it's last minute for you, why can't it be last minute for me too, ya know?

The friends I do keep in touch with, I talk to pretty much on a daily basis but since they are living in other states, they have their own friends there that they go out with, so in the end i'm still the one by myself.

I do meet a lot of people at school. I'm going for my 2nd degree and have a lot of friends in my classes The problem with that is, i'm also at least 5 years older than everyone.. which is also tough because they have their interests at 21-22 years old.. and I have mine at 27.

I would love to go out and meet people and actually be able to see them.. but it just doesn't seem to go that way. I have one or two great friends that I see on a regular basis but i'm not their only friend so I can't claim them to myself. If they want to go out with other people, they can. Too bad I'm never included in that.

It's such a big mess and at 27, it shouldn't be happening like this. Sometimes I just want to rewind time and be a kid again and try and figure out how this whole mess started.