...yeh I have to agree with that. It's not a matter of 'worked' the step..but 'working' the step, and this coming from me who only recently had a brutal relapse.

the day I knew truely deep down that I had a problem, many years ago...it began as a distant knowledge...but the day it was right in my face! There was and is never such a thing as 'drinking' for me ever ...it was and always will be a 'relapse'. I didn't go to have a drink..I went and had a relapse!
No matter how hard I try to believe that I am just off to have a drink...and that alcohol touches my mouth...I am suddenly and unequivocably embarking on a full blown bender that could kill me.

Unfortunately I sometimes consider myself as one of those who is "constitutionally incapable of being honest with myself"..because the only time I truly identify with alcoholism?...is when I am really drunk.
when I can experience powerlessness and see how unmanagable my life has become because of it!

I don't recommend this as a way to understand the first step.

I am sure I am not alone with that experience.

If I can embrace the first step when I am sober and throughout the day as an un-completed task...then I suspect I am more likely to admit I am not going for a drink...but a relapse..and a major one.

I fall down I suppose after I have survived a relapse and stopped drinking because I consider that I have 'worked' the step and I am fine now.
But I am usually in shock and just don't want to relive the horror I just went through...but after a while I forget exactly how terrible my alcoholism is.

my God it's hard... and the whole thing makes me really nervous.
because I know what I am capable of