Hi Siani- it's Sezzie. I just became a member yesterday too. I am a binge and purger as well. I can't stop it either. I'm sorry i have crap all suggestions cause i have crap all help in me own situation. i don't think either restrictive eating or bulimia is a good thing at all. It sux heh. I am also 5'7- but i'm way bigger dan you. You are a skinny chick!!! i think the best idea is to somehow draw on strengths of your personality. If you can't see that you are beautiful on the outside then it's always a good thing to look at the things that are good about you that ain't nuthin to do with body image. I really feel for us two chicks because bulimia is such a wretched sob. It's so freakin hard to stop because it's just too easy. i think that trying to eat three balanced meals a day (if you can- even if they are small) would be the best option. Build up to it if you have to. A few days ago i tried to stop the b and p-ing- i totally stopped for four days!! but am way back into it again! Such a pain in the ***! Do you have any help with all of dis eating disorder- coz the only way i got through those four days of not b and p-ing was through someone i totally admire and respect- i only wish she could help me every day! It's good to get some-one in on helping you out- and making sure you don't slip away. I'm telling you mate 95p is such a small weight for a chick who's as tall as you are. Anyway- lets try not to dwell on weight lol. My bulimia for me is about escapism- so i can forget things- bit dumb huh- I am also hung up about the weight thing as well, but not so much! But it's getting scarier! I used to be friggon obese- now i'm a normal weight- but i don't ever wana be dat gurl who was the size of a house! But anyway- even if i was da size of a house i've lately begun to recognize that there is so much more to me than just my appearance- your appearance is only just a wee part of who you are sweets- You go much deeper than that. I can think of things that i love about myself now. I hope that you can think of some things that you do love about yourself- I'm sure there must be at least some admirable qualities! I think dat you should learn to love yourself and accept dat you are a beauty above all da outside ********. I know that it's a hard thing to do, but can you just think of something that you love about yourself and write it down- put it on your wall, and remember it each day. Hold onto something like that. I am thinking of you. Love and hugs from Sezzie. I hope to hear from you soon.

Try not to be so hard on yourself . Stay strong!
(I need to take my own advice as well- cause i expect perfection in everything i do!)