soo... i guess I'm no longer in a mixed episode... but have real bad depression i can't seem to do anything and i need to clean this house up, i have let it get really messy, and boyfriend goes to work and i sit around doing nothing, and feel worthless. i want to clean, and make the house look nice, but just before i do it, i feel like i hit a brick wall and cannot climb over it. typical depression. don't know how to get myself out of it. i hate this. i just want to get up and DO this but i shut off before doing it. hate hate hate this part of depression