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Originally Posted by LydiaB
Lately I have been doing really stupid things because of my poor memory. Today I left my stove on for 11 hours when I left the house. I did this a few weeks ago too. I have made a decision to not allow myself to cook anymore, because of the safety involved. But I have also done stuff like left my door unlocked, left self harm objects in bed with me, drank left out milk. The other day I almost used my dogs frontline in a recipe, because I use an old vanilla extract bottle to keep the leftovers. Luckily I had the letters in bright red FL on there. I figured it out.
I know I usually have a poor memory, but I can't risk my entire apartment and other people's lives (and my dogs life), because I can't remember to turn off my stove. I have no idea how it happens. What I'm doing when I take the food off. How I don't just turn the knob. Like it's obvious.
The first time I left what was cooking on there. It was veg broth, then when I got home 2 hours later after suddenly remembering the chicken broth was cooked to almost nothing, but otherwise I was lucky. Today I made myself egg beaters. I got done making the food, but I have no real memory of taking it off the skillet or even eating it. I remember pulling the bread out, because I felt the one edge and I thought maybe it was getting stale. I was gone at a family function for 11 hours. And I got home and I saw the light on and then saw it was turned to med-high. I freaked out. I got lucky twice now, I'm not risking it anymore.
Does anyone know how to like work on this stuff? Is it a communication problem among the system? Am I switching too frequently? Is it just poor memory period and nothing to do with dissociation? Is there anything I can do to communicate at least really important stuff?
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for some people the things you posted about is normal, for others its physical problems like stress, poor diet, lack of sleep, anemia, alzheimers, or any number of physical health problems, or learning disorders, or any number of mental problems and disorders, for some people its even things like suicidal, self injury.
only your treatment providers can answer why *you* are doing the things you are doing and why *you* cant seem to remember to do things you were able to do before this.
these would be great topics for you to discuss when you go inpatient. one of t he things inpatient programs work on is discovering the answers to why a person is being a danger to their self or others. and you have posted one of the reasons you have been fighting to go inpatient was because you were not being safe.
Im sorry if this doesnt answer your questions but only you and your treatment providers or in your case your soon to be inpatient treatment providers can answer those questions for you.