It takes a long time to change the pathways that we have made over so many years. The more you think the positive ones the more they willl be used. That is what I have been told and read. It is so easy and frustrating to fall back into these old deragatory thoughts. Please don't give up.

It sounds to me like your original perception of your work was probably the most accurate befoer you got critical.

Grab a paw and we will get you out of that pit.