Has anyone here forgotten to take their meds for a couple/few days in a row and think "I don't think I need them anymore!" once you realized it?

I struggle with this every few months and I'm wondering how much of this is me resisting treatment and how much is it part of bipolar

My T has suggested both. She thinks part of my struggle is rebellion.

I'm on Lamictal 200mg and have finally started feeling better and now I think after missing 3 days that I am just fine without it. Last time I did this I felt great then I crashed hard after a couple weeks. Even knowing this I still struggle to keep myself on my meds.