Hi, Jess.

No one here can diagnose you, and only a professional can properly assess you. Sometimes symptoms are atypical and it takes someone who is qualified to sort it out. You may want to print this out and take it to your pdoc on your next appointment.

That being said--when I was a teenager I had all the behaviors you just described, and I did have untreated depression and social anxiety. The perfectionism and self-consciousness around my peers triggered a lot of the negative self-talk in my head. And mood swings--I am surprised that I still had friends after I graduated because of some of my blow-ups. I knew that my behavior wasn't "normal teenage stuff"--none of my friends acted or felt like I did, which made me feel worse--but back then help wasn't as available as it is now.

Do you have a therapist? They can help you work on your perfectionism and self-esteem issues, along with coping strategies for the mood swings. I don't know how it will go over with your parents, but it's worth a shot.

Good luck and take good care of yourself.