After reading several threads and figuring out that this website is truly about self-improving, I thought to myself why not improve myself. My main issue is I get crazy angry when my boyfriend does something that I don't want him to do, for example: last night I stayed at my own house in my own bed alone, without him, because I thought after being up each other's butts for the past couple of days, the little break would be nice and I could wake up the next morning and go over and see him and we would embrace each other and go about our day...but oh how I was wrong. We had a fight this morning over the issue. I wanted to go over there and he still wanted to do some things, which is understandable, but I took it as him not wanting to see me. And it seems that I think that a lot whenever that sort of thing happens, he will want to do something without me and i take it as an insult and assume that he doesnt want to see me or hold me or have anything to do with me and i get super angry and upset. I take his disagreement as rejection and the result is me getting uncontrollaby angry. I yell, I cry hysterically, and in some cases get so angry that I drive to his house to fight with him some more. Everytime we work it out wnd everything is ok, but i justbwant to stop fighting about stuff like that and i want to not get so wangry. We love each other and are trying to learn different ways to resolve our fighting but I get so scared in thinking that the next fight will be the last. I know I need to stop getting so angry because I don't want to lose this relationship. So do I just say to myself "shut up and smile"? We try and talk and sometimes it works, but if we are both super angry, it just escalates until one of us leaves or threatens to break up with the other. Even though I get uncontrollably angry, in the back of mind all I can think of is how I can fix it but I just don't know how to even start getting control of my anger or how to appropriately talk to him without making it worse. And I'm definitely the type of person who says the wrong thing at the wrong time...I suck with words, I always have and it is so difficult to me to talk to anyone but I'm always trying. He is the best thing I could ask for and I don't want to drive him away with my unnecessary anger. I've been searching for someone to listen no offer any advice because I have no idea...that's why I registered...so I could've really figure out what is going on and if I can do something about fighting with him all the time and see if the relationship can be better and not filled with fighting over stupid things.