I went to the psych hospital last evening. The nurse talked to me and then put me back out in the lobby waiting where it was terribly cold. After hours of waiting, I went home without having seen the doctor. The nurses were agreeable to let me leave. The nurse who assessed me had said that she didn't know what it was that I wanted them to do for me.

They always say that. I never have a good answer. I am seriously depressed. It's disappointing because I had been doing pretty well for awhile and I thought it was going to last longer.

I don't have an appointment to see a pdoc until February. I don't have any T. They say I am "low acuity."

I hate going over to that place. I only go over when I know I am in very bad shape and potentially unsafe. I don't make exaggerated threats.

It seems like the message is "Come back when you are really an imminent threat to yourself." What they don't understand is that I would not come in at all, if I had made a decision to act in a dangerous way. A decision is a decision.