I went to the psych hospital last night. I am very seriously depressed. The nurse triaged me as "low acuity." After waiting in the lobby for hours, I left because it was bitter cold in there. The nurses were okay with me leaving. A nurse had said that she was wondering what I expected them to do for me.

I hate going over to that place very much for special reasons. The last time I was hospitalized there was in 2004. That did lead to me being put in a day program that helped me.

I take myself to the hospital because I have no family or close friends for thousands of miles. I am not close with my relatives. When they ask how did I get there and I tell them that I drove myself, then something gets said that implies there is not too much wrong with me.

It's not my nature to get dramatic at the hospital. I don't know what to do. I think maybe just keep going back as a way of saying that I can't cope well enough by myself right now. But I don't think I will do that. But maybe I should. I am afraid of them being annoyed with me.

I'm sorry to start another thread and I wouldn't blame PC members for being tired of me saying I am depressed. I am not getting the level of services that I know is available and gotten by others. I have no T. I don't see a pdoc until February. My appointment to see a pdoc in December was canceled. My appt. for January was canceled.

I always go there alone, whether it is for an appointment or to the crisis intake area. There is nobody to accompany me and advocate for me.