As a side note, my father spent years in therapy after the family broke apart (even a short stay in the hospital after a complete breakdown) and eventually got a degree in psychology. He's a very different person now who makes a supreme effort with me and my sister. He doesn't push a reconciliation on either of us but willingly accepts whatever we want to give him in terms of a relationship. He has a very positive relationship with his significant other of 20 years, and he and I have talked openly and often about the past. So, I'm not actively feeling any anger toward him...it's more like extreme regret that I didn't even have much of a chance to develop into someone who can have normal relationships. I feel as if the proverbial horse is already out of the barn and, while I'd like to work on improving myself, I definitely feel at a disadvantage in terms of certain life skills.