I'm not exactly sure if this is the right place to be posting this, but here it goes anyways.

I did something so freaking stupid yesterday. Something that I never thought that I would stoop so low as to do. Right now I can't stand myself and I feel so guilty and ashamed of myself, and god I just can't stand myself. I hate who I am and everything about me. I'm so stupid and pathetic. I feel disgusting and it's killing me to not cry right now....I just don't know what to do. I'm not making any excuses for myslef and I take full responsibility for it, but damn it! I never meant for things to go this way!!

Sorry, just had to rant it out.