Started taking the ritalin again and I am much more able to stay awake, which is good since my 6 and 9 year olds are off of school till January 3rd!
I'm not sure how sleep will go tonight, although if I had to guess, I'd guess it'll be crappy as usual.
I am still struggling with all the memories and images of last year. I'm trying really hard to look at it as I'm not as bad as I was last year, but I still feel bad because I still think about suicide, far more often than I should.
I have been incredibly, rediculously irritable and crabby lately, and I still am. I don't even know why I am being so crabby. I don't even like myself, not sure how anyone else puts up with me.